For the past few months, I’ve been wondering what happened to the outgoing, carefree person I used to be. What was I doing differently? What changed in my life for this to happen? Why has my anxiety escalated? I mean, I’ve always had it, but never this severe. I believe that the human mind is the strongest thing in the world. I’ve learned to control my anxiety through talking to myself and deep breathing. I refuse to take a pill or talk to a stranger about my issues because in the end, it’s me that needs to help myself and I need to reprogram my thoughts and worries.
My anxiety has become to severe that it’s strongly effecting my social life. With my anxiety, I feel nauseous and dizzy when I’m out with friends. I NEVER used to be this way. I’m a social butterfly and I’ve been trying to figure out what happened in the last few months to make me some anti-social mole. So, I was looking around for natural ways to ease anxiety and all those steps, I used to do all of them. Breathing exercises, drink tea, exercise, write, eat my favorite foods, walk around, listen to music. For some odd reason, I stopped doing all of that. And that’s when my anxiety started to escalate. I’ve been stressed out about my job and money - a lot. My love life is pretty damn amazing, so I’m not stressed about that.
Today, I’m taking the inititive and turning my life around to where it used to be. Writing everyday, drinking green tea, exercising, listen to music just because. I want to be that carefree and outgoing person I used to be. I miss her so much. I think back to a few months ago and I used to be so much fun. I will not let my anxiety take over my life anymore.
I have a new job that I’m about to start, I’ll be making more money. I’ll have free time with my boyfriend, friends, and loved ones. I know I can do this.
Today marks the end of my anxiety.
I’m coming back. And I’ll never leave again.
My goal weight is 125lb to 130lb.
I need tips and help.